...with the punches.
I cannot expand upon our experience as foster parents at this time. What I can say is that I believe loosing a child is one of the hardest things a parent could go through. Unlike death, our foster children are alive and "okay" although, we cannot do anything to save them. I know my babies ask for me but I don't hear that anymore. I live on the hope that they will be in our lives one day.
...tears.
So I let the tears roll. I cried to mourn the loss of the children. I cried because this is the season I miscarried. I cried because I am scared to death to do IVF and risk the chance it doesn't work-another loss. Sometimes we just have to let the tears flow. I let it out, but life goes on. So I cry and pick myself up and try again.
...coins.
Yes, coins. I guess you could call it desperation, but I sat at my kitchen table and rolled coins. We are going to make this work and doing so without going into debt. A wonderful friend come to me with $100 dollars four our "baby fund". I felt awkward taking money but how gracious I am to them for being so generous. So with rolled coins, money from our parents and a donation we are $1,197.50 closer to our goal! :)
ROLL WITH IT...
On a good note: we have been approved! The insurance said my blood work qualified us to do IVF. I spoke with the doctor this morning and we are beginning the process...tonight! I am starting birth control and Ciprofloxacin HCL and Paul is taking Doxycicline (because it is proven couples who take antibiotics before IVF have a higher success rate). Then I will get a ultrasound and start the other drugs the last week of December. Hopefully to do a egg retrieval by mid January.
Jessica-my name is Stephanie and my parents go to Open Door with you and your husband. My sweet best friend, Rachel S., directed me to your blog. I, too, struggle with IF due to PCOS. We have been seeing an RE since last June. We've tried Clomid, Femera, and are moving on to injections. I mean this in the best way possible, but it is so nice to "know" someone who is going through the same thing, even though I don't technically know you. I'm following you now and will be praying for your IVF cycle. Come visit me over at waitingonpinklines.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteStephanie,
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you contacted me! If you ever need to talk please feel free to contact me directly at only4hair@hotmail.com. I know this is a hard process to go through and it is definately nice to know you aren't alone. On the plus side of doing injections...they go straight into your blood stream so they don't affect you in the same way that pills do (my husband could put up with me a little better). :) I wish you the best of luck and will be following you as well!
Jessie